Dreams

Do you ever stop and wonder whether what you are doing right now is really what you wanna do?

I was watching The Lakehouse on channel 5 today. And well, i guess the first point of me affirming to myself that i wanted to make beautiful buildings was when i watched the movie for the first time in mid-2006. And i just realised that it was just before i went for FOC or started the first day of my life in architecture.

It wasn't just that the house itself was so inspirational, definitely was (although it reminds me of farnsworth), with the maple tree right in the middle of the house and it hovering over the water, and it's context, right in the middle of nowhere...

Not just that the main character was an architect...

The idea of the lakehouse creating so much emotion, the concept of how Alex explained how the house represented all that his father was, surrounded by so much beauty, yet unable to touch it. And when Alex and his father were having the conversation about the light in a particular site would totally affect the architecture...

Small things like that... It simply entranced me.

I know, I'm not talking about this like a "true archi student" would. But i dont care.

But i guess, now, it's pretty impossible that I'm gonna be an architect, with grades and more important, the lack of talent.

As I watch the movie now, several things flow through my head. I still do want to create things of beauty, or something that has an impact in people's lives. I know i cant do that in the form of a building anymore. But I guess in a way, I still can.

My lifelong dream is to open a Boutique Hotel or/and a restaurant. I know that it may not be a permanent experience for people. But to me, it does leave an impact to certain extent. You remember the decor, you remember the food that just leaves you wanting more, you remember the atmosphere... you remember the experience.

maybe I'm just rambling. Just getting it all out...